The world we live in is SO fractious. It seems everything, at one point or another, divides. Families, friends, congregations, companies, teams; it just seems to be the nature of things.
I was thinking this morning about all the many, many people that have been in and out of my life. Most of the ones who are now out are out due mainly to people just living life, moving on to the next phase. But, sadly, some are out because they wanted me out of their lives. Very few are out by my choice.
I am usually the one reaching out. Several times in my life, that innate feature within me has actually contributed to division with those who like to shut themselves out, and/or be fake. I’ve learned to temper my exuberance for friendship. The other day, a dear friend who moved away to a new job two years ago, who had become my very close neighbor for about a month or so after we moved into our current home, messaged me to inquire about something biblical, and also just to say ‘hello.’ It was so very good to hear from him.
I have messaged a few people over the years, who have not been very responsive. I’m ‘friends’ with people on facebook who never ‘communicate’. And I understand many do not like to. But, I genuinely am interested in people. In their wellbeing, in their thoughts. Maybe I’m weird. I have always been picked on, shunned/marginalized, then bullied, then just ignored, and then, after coming to serve Messiah whole-heartedly, persecuted and/or avoided. I lost a job last year, and while COVID was the contributing ‘excuse’, I am certain part of it was anti-Semitism and personal resentment. I was lied about, and someone who knew the truth of it kept quiet in front of me, and I suspect probably supported the lie behind my back.
I spend most of my days, when I’m not busy in work or writing, rejoicing in His Word through music, praying, or just enjoying my wife’s company. But, occasionally, I think about these things. I have a memory that is ‘long in the tooth,’ and do not forget much. And I often think of people who I haven’t seen in years. But, I rarely reach out anymore, because I find most, even relatives, not to be very responsive/reciprocal.
In pondering this today while sitting in our garden, I went to the coming Kingdom in my mind, and it dawned on me: there will be NO ONE there who I do not love! And NO ONE there will not love me! All the ‘undercurrent’ of wicked thinking, selfishness, judgment/condemnation, will be gone. We will ALL be like “Netanel”/Nathaniel: one in whom their is NO guile. No deceit; nothing to hide! We will all live in the love of Messiah Yeshua, with Him as our king, and He will rule the earth by The Torah. We will ALL keep the Sabbath, and ALL the feasts of יהוה , from Pesakh to Sukkot, for which I am currently shunned and avoided for keeping and promoting, and NONE of the man-made feasts that most people observe today, for which I am shunned for not observing.
I cannot WAIT! First of all, to SEE Messiah Yeshua, the man, my SAVIOR! To meet the Patriarchs! Ya’akov, Moshe, Melekh David, Dani’el. To meet the Shilkhim [apostles], especially Yokhanan, and Sha’ul. To see my parents and grandparents again, and meet some of my forebears. And ALL the very KIND people whom I have met over the years and with whom I have had too little time to fellowship.
I despise the hate that is boiling in this earth right now. I despise all the division. It was divided when Yeshua was here, and they marginalized Him, shunned Him, persecuted Him, and finally executed Him. But, because of the JOY that was set before Him, He endured it all, for our sakes. And those of us who ENDURE, who have “nitzakhon” through trusting in His blood, confessing Him, and obeying His Torah, have that SAME joy set before us. And I long for Him to be revealed. All the fractious, divisive behavior in this earth is one sure sign He is getting ever closer to coming to get us. And I. CANNOT. WAIT!!!!